I have stopped listening

to our songs without truth

which hung for too long

on clothesline of despair

beyond my halting reach,

hidden among bruises

of empty promises.

Death rattle stilled

my faltering heart

in your barren place.

Penetrating dagger

slew my hollow chest

as I moaned and stared

at bottomless destiny.

I grabbed fistfuls of

my shattered pieces

and ran parallel

to your lightning strikes

out of your dark grasp.

I broke my silence

to be heard

above the call

of crows.

Tears glistened

on my stitched face

as I turned my back

on you, fleeing

toward the moon.

I cling to you with trembling hand

feeling grief blot the sun,

tears mingling with shadows lurking

I fear that precious time together

will be drowned too soon

by waves that can’t be overcome.

Bleached white drops of blood

paving way for what is to come.

Fingers locked to cherish moments,

cradling memories of time leaking

into blue pools of sorrow.

Clotting of life’s veins cannot forestall

approach of the thunderous sky,

I touch your aura, envious

of the white light emanating

with your scent grasping air,

steps along our path faltering,

your footsteps making this home.

I am not ready to let you go.

At night, I mourn the morning light

gazing through misted windows.

I ache with the breaths I take,

willing to give them to you

so that our sunrise will shine

for a little bit longer.

I can’t bear rising to newborn dawn

in my lonely barren desert,

curling in fetal position

unless you are there beside me

as I watch the water of inevitability

flow to its lowest point,

curving to fit your heartbeats.

I yearn to skim

the turquoise seas

on the back of a dolphin

as the gentle silver ghost

surges in air

to the peach jelly sky.

I become immersed

in the troupe of giant clowns

who giggle and leer sunbeams

as the sun bleeds sanguine

into mirrored aqua dreams.

I touch the soft rubbery skin

of the dolphin’s back

with my thighs,

a rogue reveler in denial

believing I am one of them,

enjoying the inclusion

in the pack as

sneaky undertow

tugs at sleek fins.

I absorb the aqua water,

bathing me,

into my skin

in warm moist embrace.

Babbling in elusive sounds

the dolphins include me

in their watery talks.

I hang on tightly

as the dolphin leaps

over perfect skim milk waves

which replicate and

carry us on.

I am enchanted

by misshapen

juicy plum clouds

showing the way.

We dive deeply

when lightning bolts

divide the sky,

skimming grated chambers

of abandoned wrecks

of hollowed honor.

We surface to see the tide

slinking in to trammeled

grains of gold kissed sand.

I cannot abandon

my azure vision,

gliding forever

in watery diamonds

of diaphanous spray.

I dream of just a night with you, devoid of talk and thought

Of raw emotion, and passion, with a woman I have sought

While I don't even know you, and love could never succeed

I would love you for a night, a night of wanton greed

and tomorrow when we wake, we can pretend it was a dream

and when it's safe to think bad thoughts, they'll always be of me.

I absorbed his lies like thirst for soul

falsehoods skittering dance on mind

touch felt true and pure on my skin

I ignored itching doubts lingering.

He looked with fake love in eyes

shut tightly under veil of falsehood

deceitful eyes hidden beneath lashes

black cunning heart scheming

to pillage body, leaving bones.

Ravaged essence, drank lifeblood

crimson drops on  tongue.

Creeping into psyche in faltering steps,

love bloomed in hardened mind,

daisies waving in tilled field

“I must have you,  possess you,”

he murmured in quiet whispers.

“I’m married,” I said, revenge beaming

“He who laughs last, laughs best.”

For this life

For the next

For the past

And the future

It's all very complex

But let's all understand the context

We are here to defy

To experience and lie

Lies that turned into nothing to expect 

Bodies laying together 

Limbs tangled

Breathing is a hassle 

Caressing is a must

Damp flesh 

Under the moonlight glow 

Going with the flow

Explosions overthrow 

Lips move together

Two bodies 

Now one

With chances

Zero to one

No survival can come

Final breath escape the lungs

In the woods 

Body laying there

Shallow in grave 

Waiting to be found

Found by anyone 

I see God when I see a new mother

I feel God when man helps his brother

I hear God as I listen to a choir

I think of God when my life grows dire

I have never seen the heavens part

An angel never has disturbed my thoughts

With with these simple evidences I see

I can say: I saw God literally

The lady in shreds, 

Begging for some bread,

A school boy stops,

And empties his tuck box,

Oh I was glad,

To see the fine lad,

In my heart I gave an applaud,

Cause that is how I saw God!

I walked the path, to the graveyard gate,

A little girl stood, for her granny she prayed,

She put her bouquet on the marble stone

Then plucked a lilly and walked on,

She paused at a old and unattended mound,

Offered her lilly, left me astound.

My heart felt cool in the noon so hot,

Cause that is how I saw God!

I sat by the road, to paint the crossing crowd,

I saw a man walking, all vain and proud

And then in his hands I saw another,

Helping an old lady walk, when no one bothered,

I was touched at the gesture, I may not say it a lot,

But that is how I saw God!

Every day for a moment or two,

I live my life believing in the me & you,

And that is when I am surprised,

By the divine presence in our daily lives,

We may not often give it a thought,

But once everyday, we do see God!

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