We haven't met.

Here we are -

at this party -

wearing these pseudonymous masks,

sharing words,

enjoying drinks (among other spoils),

exchanging spirits.

I feel so connected to this

family

I have never met

in person.

Thank you

for being here.

Just wanted to say -

I sincerely

love you all.

all We see is sky

for forever

the vast veil of blue

clouds so vanilla white

the grass scratches my shoulders

and the back of my legs

an ant crawls along the arch of my foot

over sandal tan-lines

across chipped purple nail plish

the light from the sun

caressing

embracing

kissing my cheeks

my nose

the hollows of my neck

a trail of tiny freckles

in its wake

closed eyes

a slight smile

We could be alright

for forever

this

way

#dearevanhansen #forforever

do you understand

what it is you are to them?

you are a symbol of where

goodness ends

and darkness begins -

an embodiment of sin and

i can't help you win.

not this time.

because i cannot defy

who i have been shaped to be.

you may take to the skies but i

i was never meant to be free.

i am good, and you are green.

and you can't mean more to me

than the future i have dreamed of

for years until we met.

i hate that you've done this.

you've turned my world on it's axis and how

am i supposed to right this hellish

riot dancing behind my eyes?

it sets my thoughts on fire and

makes me question every desire i've ever had

because i can't figure out which ones were mine

when your eyes look so very sad.

i've loved you since that stupid hat.

now you're leaving and i can't help but think

this is why i have to keep dreaming.

reality is colder than i was told

and you've always been so honest with me.

even when i don't deserve the sympathy

since i grew up in such refinery,

living blindly while they shower me in gold.

they will chant my name and

place a crown upon my head.

but i will always think of you

when no one mourns the wicked.