the reality of our days
days are gone
nights are long
children cry
mothers sigh
fathers don’t speak
away they sneak
sun shines bright
then it is night
people walk fast
to escape their past
lost souls all around
make their desperate sounds
the birds fly away
flowers no longer sway
the oceans comforting sound departs
the proud forests have lost their heart
all around there is destruction
teachers teach without instructions
restaurants close and refuse to serve
there is no more beauty to observe
the world is hopeless and obscure
what do we do, who has the cure?
Changed in an Instant
We rang in 2020, of the new year
with lots of laughter good times and cheer.
It did not take long for everyone to see
we should have started this year differently.
Chaos is a common state for our world,
But it gets out of control with each spoken word.
Don’t’ go out in public or hug each other.
Close all schools and businesses said the government.
Do not gather together and we will get through this.
But after many days passed, we began to ask what if …
our isolation only caused this crisis to double
The aloneness triggered more depression and trouble.
Irritability increased, impatience and intolerance.
Then suddenly the virus was replaced by violence.
Rage and hatred have taken over our land,
and certainly, everything has gotten out of hand.
Was there a better way to keep everyone safe?
Could we have continued to live but learned to replace
thoughtless care for sanitation and spreading the germs
which has been proven to protect us from all the harm?
We were taught as children by our parents early on,
wash your hands thoroughly, let the dirt be gone.
Cover your mouth completely when you cough and sneeze,
Oh, and keep your hands away from your face if you please.
Stay home and away from others if you are sick.
If you get worse, go to the doctor really quick.
Do not carry your illness to parties or work,
take care of yourself, we were taught how since birth.
Be aware of your neighbors and if someone is in need,
do what you can to help them succeed.
You can honor them with thoughtful words, clothing, or food,
Give from your many blessings to those who have few.
Our isolation has turned many of us to destruction
as we wallow in despair and dwell on frustration.
Kindness disappeared when we stayed in our homes
thinking we had to survive all of this on our own.
Our graduating seniors have suffered a lot
They could not celebrate the twelve years they were taught.
They were not able to gather together as a class
or dream about how their future would pass.
After all this despair is there any more hope?
What is out there for us to help us cope?
Who is capable of spreading a little cheer,
to us and to those we love and hold dear?
The answer is as old as God’s creation.
He had the power to create us and he can stop the destruction.
He does it, not with fanfare of trumpets and noise.
He quietly and powerfully uses His church to spread joy.
The church did not take a vacation from life.
Instead they invented new ways to shine God’s light.
They flooded their congregations with lots of encouragement,
and reminded us, underneath we are not all that different.
All of us require contact and connection to each other,
our family our friends our sisters and brothers.
We cannot ignore our need for interactions
if we do, the results are hatred and frustrations.
God does not want us to isolate from our life.
He wants us to spread His goodness and light
to a lost world living in all this chaos.
He reminds us to replace with joy, what we lost.
Thank you to the many health professionals,
who tirelessly gave of themselves with no hesitation.
To all the peacekeepers who came out in force
and the good people who continued the course.
Remember this, in the end of everything,
God is in control and His will is to redeem
those who believe His words and accept
His salvation, and His love that will not quit.
So, in summation we have a choice
in the actions we take. Will we cry or rejoice?
I choose to not allow the bad news we hear
defeat me, but with God’s help, I will spread Cheer.
The Stress of Despair
I woke today, I hate me.
I see nothing in my life but need.
There’s so much despicable loathing inside,
I want to run, but there’s nowhere to hide.
The only answer I can find
Is to separate and leave me behind.
The minute I detach from me,
I know immediately, I’m not free.
Despair brings nothing but emptiness, that’s true,
and the chaos surrounding me isn’t new.
My feelings are buried way deep down,
my soul has become numb and my ears hear no sound.
No matter how fast or far I run
I cannot escape dark because there is no sun.
The answers I seek are all gone.
There isn’t anything left but a despondent song.
In one last act of desperation,
I scream in agony at the deprivation
and the torturous life that’s been my curse.
It’s the same song, just another verse.
I strike at the darkness, suffocating and dense,
thinking all along it makes no sense.
I know there’s a God who dwells high above
the hatred with a desire to spread His love.
This God is all-powerful and wise,
To see such distress comes as a surprise.
He can wipe out all this evil and hatred
without exerting even, a single breath.
With one imperceptible wave of His hand
He can remove the misery from this land.
So, if that is the truth, and I know it is,
why does He wait? The answer is His.
The longer He tarry’s the worse people get,
and the worse it gets, the more tired I am, yet
sleep is an issue; no not sleep. It’s rest.
I lay down in slumber but wake in jest.
Once again, I drag my bone-weary self
out of the comfort of bed and delve
into another cold, dark, dreary day
with nothing but sorrowful words to say.
The agony of life will continue on
until the time the world is gone.
Or maybe not the world at all,
But for me alone my God will call.
When that day comes one way or the other
The answers I’ve sought so hard to discover
will be discarded so far away
because it’s the dawning of a new and better day!
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Give me Joy
@wabisabi.
I want so much but I’m limited by my inhibitions, fear and finances. Perfect love casts out all fear. How do I calm my desires? How do I separate my needs from my wants? How do I quiet the voice of the enemy? No. I don’t want to quiet the voice, I want to stop the voice of the enemy. His voice is a proponent of dissatisfaction
Perfect Love casts out all fear. God is perfect. His Love is perfect. With God’s love comes peace. I must let go of the small insignificant troubles of life and hang on to perfect love. I will have peace and not fear.
Again, this morning anxiousness creeps in.
But I don’t look for a secret hidden sin,
to explain the onset of my trepidation.
I know without any hesitation,
My god is greater than the enemy of the world.
I’ve read it many times from Gods own word
I stop a moment and take a deep breath
to breathe out the uneasiness that’s crept
into my spirit during the night
when I was tucked in my bed tight.
I’ve not discovered the hidden secret
to block the enemy from his nightly creep
in order to plant the seeds of restlessness
to spread a crippling darkness.
I’d like to wake one early morning
without the need to take a moment
to summon and focus all my energies
to seek the perfect remedy
for waking with this anxiousness within.
I want to wake with joy again.
You Have No Power!
The blueness of today
has gotten in the way
of living out my life
free from all the strife.
I didn’t know where to go
or who could help me know
how to ignore the despair
and forcefully and loudly declare
flee from me right now
you enemy, you have no power!
You cannot hope to compete,
my Fathers love is complete.
You no longer have a voice
to suggest or promote my choice.
I’m free from my defeatist stronghold!
Now, that you’ve been told,
I’ll turn and walk away
into a brighter day.
Dear Dipshit Depression,
Dear Dipshit Depression,
We have been together for a long time. I can’t tell you how long because I’m not sure when you first arrived. I remember when you came to stay, but you had been hanging around the perimeter of my life since my first memories. I managed to ignore you until the day you moved in when I was eleven. The reason you were able to move in at that time is simply that I chose to leave my home. I only meant it to be temporary and tried coming back home a few times, but you completely filled up my house with your stuff I was never comfortable again. I lived with you at my house until your things became my stuff. I was forced to remove everything I collected and only have vague memories of a few of my most prized possession. Those I hid in a tiny hidden closet, so you were never able to destroy them. I would go to my wardrobe from time to time looking for “the me” you thought you shattered. I left my closet with just enough strength to survive your abuse, but I was never able to stand up to you.
You wanted my life so desperately, and there were a couple of times I almost handed me to you. Among my prized possessions was a formidable little slight of a person named Survivor. She never entirely defeated you, but she was strong enough to drag me away at the last minute. I would leave home again so I could be safe from your violence. Each time I fled Survivor found safe places for me to hide and regain my strength. The years of working with Survivor have been many and challenging. My tiny closet became filled with more prized possessions until one day, I could not fit in another item.
I noticed you became complacent to the point you ignored me. The only time you became aware of my presence were the times I tried to reason with you to clean out your clutter in my house. You became so enraged I had to leave or hide. I eventually realized my pleas for you to change fell on deaf ears, and it was up to me to begin to clean house. I had to find another room to continue to store my new possessions. From my tiny hidden closet, I found a space on the other side of the closet door. It wasn’t a large room but once I discarded the clutter, there was room enough for me to grow my life. With Survivor’s help, I learned to disguise the room. You never noticed my gradual infiltration.
Memories of your abuse overwhelmed. I fled my home to escape the pain until my friend talked me back home. I was a yoyo for years, but I claimed additional rooms for myself. Survivor and I found other friends. Slippery came. The three of us together learned to slip away anytime you got close. Soon, Runner came. Runner convinced me to take back more of my home. She taught me to outrun you when you caught me in a room with your stuff. Your space became smaller, and you became enraged more often. You bullied me more and I was compelled to leave home more... I was afraid for Survivor, Slippery and Runner and instructed them to stay hidden. I abandoned home to avoid the hurt.
Survivor, Slippery, and Runner found me in my exile to introduce me to a new friend. I did not desire another person to protect. My protestations fell on deaf ears. The day I met fighter was a pivotal point in my relationship with you. Fighter took control of my dire situation and instilled new energy into my life. I accomplished more than I had ever dared hope. As I recovered more rooms, you reacted with more anger and violence. My friends stayed right by my side even when I ran away, encouraged me to get back into my home and stand up to you. Fear reared his ugly head more often. I resisted my friends; I demanded they leave. I lashed out and yelled about how difficult and conflicted my life became after they arrived. In the past, I knew the safe places. I kept chaos away and you quiet. Now, I daily experienced something different and uncomfortable. I told them I was tired of fighting this war.
Alone, defeated, dejected, and abandoned. There was darkness all around, but it was quiet. I faded into nothingness until I felt the gentle touch of strong arms as I l was lifted from the cold dark pit called my life. So great was the warmth and comfort I did not think to resist. We were joined by my old familiar friends, Survivor, Slippery, Runner and Fighter. No one spoke but the warmth and strength of their presence were palpable. I became engulfed in it.
My surroundings became brighter, and I had clarity for the first time in a long time. My rescuer stopped as did my four friends. I looked into His eyes and the kindness and love electrified energy into my soul. To my dismay, He moved to put me on my own feet. I began to struggle but one more look into His empathetic eyes calmed me and I relaxed and let Him place me on my own feet.
I was surprised at how good it felt to stand on my own. The lead, the exhaustion, all the fight was gone, and I became exhilarated. Fear became a figment of a long-ago memory. I learned my new friend’s name, Overcomer. Overcomer began our conversation by re-introducing me to my four steadfast friends. He reminded me how faithful they had been, and no matter how far I ran, they continued to seek me out. I could not doubt their determination to keep me from being isolated and alone.
I wasn’t sure how to get you out of my house, but Overcomer showed me the way. I’ve always had the ability; I just didn’t realize I had the power. With Overcomer by my side and Survivor, Slider, Runner, and Fighter behind me, I demand you leave my home. You are not welcome anymore. Take everything you have and get the hell out. You can take the keys if you want but they won’t work. Overcomer has changed the locks on my door and injected a force field on my windows. You will never be able to sneak back into this place. You are not strong, and loud can’t hurt me. Go, gone, desist, and cease from my life!
@wabisabi.
Reality is Perception; Stupid is Reality believing our Perceptions
Stupid is telling a five-year-old she is lying when she said she didn’t remember being told about lying and spanking her.
Stupid is telling a seven-year-old her two-year-old brother wouldn’t have died if she prayed.
Stupid is a seven-year-old feeling guilty for playing when her brother was in the hospital and dying.
Stupid is telling a seven-year-old she didn’t miss her two-year-old brother because she didn’t let him play with her toys when he was alive.
Stupid is asking for an opinion and telling the person who gave her opinion she’s wrong.
Stupid is telling a child she would be so pretty if only she just lost some weight.
Stupid is telling a child at all stages, she isn’t good enough.
Stupid is telling a sibling, why can’t you be more like your sister?
Stupid is an authority figure saying he would never hurt an eleven-year-old after he molested her.
Stupid is being told no one can know about what happened to a daughter because it would destroy the family.
Stupid is a school counselor advising an aspiring nurse she shouldn’t go to college because it would be a waste of money.
Stupid is a mother telling her daughter she didn’t need to go to college to be a someone.
Stupid is telling a sad daughter, getting married would make her happy.
Stupid is a teenager being pushed into a relationship because someone thought she would be a good fit for a stranger.
Stupid is accepting a marriage proposal because the seventeen-year-old thought she would never get another chance, and marriage would make her happy.
Stupid is not listening to warning bells when a fiancé quit a job because it wasn’t enough money.
Stupid is working all night, going to school, keeping up household chores, helping a fiance work while he started and quit 3 different sales jobs in six months so he could be successful before they got married.
Stupid is going through with a wedding a week after she graduates from hight school and her fiance gets laid off of the fourth job he had in six months.
Stupid is going on a honeymoon anyway when neither had jobs or savings.
Stupid is letting a new husband decide it would be best to go visit his grandmother while on their honeymoon.
Stupid is moving twenty-one times in eight years of marriage.
Stupid is believing the reason your husband had to quit his job is that the boss was stupid and against him … every year for the first six years.
Stupid is being told by her husband he didn’t want her to come home after sending her away for two months, defy him and pack to go anyway.
Stupid is discounting the importance of information she received that her husband molested a sister when she was ten, then slept with that same sister when she was sixteen.
Stupid is believing a husband who insists on the reason he had an affair was her fault.
Stupid is going to a friend of a brother to get counseling on sexual issues because she couldn’t satisfy her husband and being sexually exploited.
Stupid is thinking her husband would change.
Stupid is telling her husband who was “infatuated” with another woman, they either needed to get counseling for their marriage or divorce if he didn’t want to be married.
Stupid is using the same attorney because her husband didn’t want to fight, and making promises but refusing to put it in the divorce decree because he didn’t want to be legally bound.
Stupid is believing her lying husband would follow through on all that he promised.
Stupid is believing that her life was over at twenty-five, and the only way her daughters would survive her as a mother was to get them into therapy.
Stupid is to think that we cannot escape our family.
Stupid is to think we are what we are and there is no hope for change.
Stupid is believing there is no hope for a way out of despair except for suicide.
Stupid is believing no one cares and we are all alone in our pain.
Stupid is not taking the next step and the next step until we finally see the sun.
Stupid is giving up on ourselves and our worth.
Stupid is letting our past, the bad things that happened to us and those who hurt us dictate how we define ourselves.
Stupid is sweating the small stuff, obsessing on the bad stuff and ignoring the good in life and of others, and forgetting we have a Heavenly Father who walks with us through the good and the bad.