Don’t cry for me

everybody dies

in their own time.

Impending death

does not scare me

going to a better place.

I live or die

by the choices I made.

Lethal injection

not an execution

but a murder!

I am not ending

but beginning.

I am afraid

to transition alone.

Will you be there

with me?

I am sorry

that I killed

your brother -

hope this brings closure.

I see sadness drip

from my family’s eyes but

I have peace in my heart

am ready for next journey.

I have new pants

with a zipper and buttons,

orange juice to drink.

Not a loss but a win!

We are not

that much different.

I am you

and you are me.

Peel back your skin

and you will see.

#WordsFromAMurderer #AwaitingExecution #WeAreTheSame #LethalInjection

Yearning for something new

I open my date book

which is always full

& grin with delight

It would be tonight!

— my vivisection

#Change

#FreeVerse

#DarkHumor

If you feel something is possible in present, then look for reason

Once the reason is cited, then rest everything becomes simple.

If you feel something is not possible in present, then make sure that cause must not become a concern

Feel the difference between what you have got with you in present and everything you want from future.

It's very necessary before taking the first step in right direction.

Tomorrow if something goes wrong

Even a back up plan backfires, then if there is something that holds the ground it's the purpose with which I took the first step in this direction.

Most probably direction may be right, but need of the hour is to put in more efforts.

Feel the difference

A difference between expertise and experience

Both cannot be right

Both cannot be wrong

Both cannot be used in the same situation at the same time.

Does a day come when I awaken undefeated

Rested, eager, prepared

To push on

How can I be sure it will get better

Not now, but maybe

Someday

Does a day come when I look in the mirror

Unabashed by my own image

And smile

Why does it feel like

No one can hear me

Am I not vocal

Or does no one listen

It's only me

To counter myself

Who else could know

How much hate I have

For myself

And whose fault is that?

How do you heal a wound you can't see

And no one knows exists

But you

Because only you can feel the pain everyday when you wake up

And everytime you look at yourself

And every evening you spend alone

Wondering what you should be

Or could be

If you were anybody but yourself

The hardest part about crying yourself to sleep sometimes is to just let go of the tears and give in to the sleep.

It means, for a moment, you can forget whatever belabors your mind and just exist

I look up at the night sky

only to find myself stuck on the ground.

In the inconceivable vastness of space

I am struck on this small rock called Earth

cursed to live my entire life on the shore

unable to explore the depth

of the cosmic ocean

always wondering what creatures

lies just beyond the horizon

I can not leave the shore

Or even wet my feet

in the shallowest part of its waters

only a select few can do that

And I am not among them

No I am forever stuck on the shore

Atlas, the ultimate frontier

remains just out of reach

I look at the night sky

with tears running down my cheek

And the cold wind

sending sharp pains down my back

As I realize this is all I will ever see

I am not just struck on the shore

No, I was born trapped in a cage

With no key to escape

All I can do is sit and wonder