I have been toying with the idea for some time now to take the plunge into the world of published words but can never bring myself to actually pull the trigger. It's not a fear of failing, I am already used to that and without widespread name recognition - already accepted it. I joined this site to use as a scribbling pad, unedited thoughts to get them out of my head. Yet it has evolved into so much more. I found inspiration and friends. I want to thank everyone for being here and being so positive. You are fantastic! And I am nothing but an unknown poet whose words will be long forgotten.

You block me on Insta,

Yet I'm taking the blame.

You're calling me names

And incriminating me

For apparently doing the same.

I think you're a crazy bitch,

And fishing is your game.

No one's paying you attention,

So you spread your news,

But that's a little lame...

I could fight you all day,

And win before you utter a word,

But my silence is more powerful.

Stop being a turd.

By the way,

No one asked

For your story...

Go kiss my ass.

Yesterday I heard that

A girl in my class

Was sending nudes.

I guess that just

Cause we're Catholic,

We aren't necessarily prudes...

I'm only in eighth grade,

And yet people smoke and drink.

Where did my childhood go?

Where are the rules,

The structure of any sorts?

I don't want to see

What's under your shorts.

In religion, we talk about chastity,

Yet they're sending pictures

Of their boobs to the entire galaxy.

It's surprising what you can find

In the darkest corners

Of a little private school...

Failure isn't falling down, it's staying down. -James Patterson

This quote is absolutely how I feel about failure. When someone fails at something and doesn't do anything to change the situation. Everyday many people fail at small things and at gigantic things but how they deal with the aftermath is what counts.

Someone close to me had relapsed for a year after being sober for 7 years. He called me and felt so down and said he felt like such a failure. I told him that failure isn't falling down, its staying down. If he wanted to continue out using and feeling like a failure then by all means keep using, but if he wanted to change the situation and become stronger than he was before to go to rehab. He admitted himself into rehab yesterday and I am more proud of him now than I ever have been before.

Him relapsing isn't failure, in my eyes, it's growth.

It feels like the time is ripe for us to feel alive and rise like the Sun emanating, demonstrating that our time's begun. Never hating 'cause we know we've already won. There's nothing to lose. You must choose truth and dare. Don't be impaired or scared by anything going against...

Give me my childhood as you once had yours,

Fresh air and freedom to go play outdoors,

Give me the love that my soul needs to grow,

Teach me the verse so my rhyming will flow,

Stay at my side as I make my mistakes,

Promise you'll stay for as long as it takes,

Guide and protect me as I trip and fall,

I'll follow your lead and I'll give it my all,

Know that I love you with all of my heart,

And that I'll stay true when we both are apart,

I will forever remain true to you,

With love for the wonderful things that you do.

My soul is trapped

In this decaying body

Viruses,diseases

Dancing happily

in blood stream

There's so much i could offer

But restrained cause' of fragility

Feeling impaled and useless

Can't help but feel sorry

Regrets have crossed

inside my mind

Of what i should or would've done

What if and would it

Even what am I

Did I even live my life

Worthy of its time?

So if there's something I would like to tell you

Live YOUR life the way YOU want it to

Cause in the end its YOU that matters most

Time's too precious to drown oneself in sorrow

Cause' in a snap your tommorrow might get snatched

That'll leave you awestruck

And muse over have I's and could haves

I watch

As your soul scatters through the room

Captivated eyes follow your every move

Radiant

Sparkling

Dazzling all with your view

All the while

Here I sit

An imposter in my own skin

Alone in the shadows

Uncomfortable

Unnoticed

Unwanted

Yearning to be

While you just are