When did I become so obsessed with perfect

you walk around like you dont comitt murder

you have the anger as a viper

I be lying if I didnt have a bad case of paranoia

I often fuck yah feelings

i am a villain

call me cruel

I Am a nagger

I jank your collar

I need your poison

I am needy

I am collector

I want your serects

but you won’t have mine

I am sinner

I cant help it

I am a perfectionist

I will wrap around you like an anacoda and suffocate

you

I like to see you squirm

I am fascinated with your demonic mind

my body aint holy

i like the way drugs enter my body

I will keep chasing the mania

I can’t keep the manic down

i stress people out

you‘ll Turn gray and old

I can’t help it

I am dead inside

I scratch and claw

my way out of the ground

I don’t want you

but I need you

I am an confusing contradiction

just love me

I know I am mad As the hatter

I know I look innocent

but you don’t know I am a monster

i am difficult

I got walls on walls

be my rapunzel

jump over my walls

might slit yah for getting to close

I don’t know how to show u me without

bleeding out through poetry

I am crazy

I am a colorful cutie

a rainbow brite child

I got a sucidal smile

I am the joker

why so serious baby

I warned you I am living inside

my skeleton

I hope your reading this one

i am flawed

Jesus save me

I ain’t perfect me

prayer hands

cause I am hypocrite

the pew cant hold me

my passive

aggressive

is aggressive

I am blunt

I am mean

I don’t like people

pity you humans

I often feel godlike

i lack sympathy

bullshit

I hate you

i lie

like a cheater

when I say I love You

I don’t feel emotion

when there’s connection

I love from a distance

I wrap my body on a cross

I am not afraid to die

I am insecure

I fear no one will ever really stay in love with me

so when I found you

I went look for reasons proving you didnt love me

but fuck your feelings

cause this piece is about me

I am emotional

I wallow in my drama or trauma

I need my mama

I just want someone who understands my silence

i am freak in sheets

I am no child of god

I slept with stranger to feel at home

I am a mistake

I have tried to abort myself

I get in my feelings

too much

like I am drake

I submerge in myself

that I forget how other people feel maybe it’s because I am victim of the abuse

I let people get in the way of my relationships

i see the future

I started flipping out

i tend to overthink

I cocked the gun

I inflict my bullets

i tell you to stay gone

because if I lose you

I don’t know to pick up the damn pieces of my heart

I am crazy

obsessEd with destroying myself

I will manipulate a situation to get the outcome

I don’t deserve shit

i often hate myself

I have tried to cut myself out of my skin

hoping I fall out of body

my greatest mistake is being too afraid

of Not being all put together

i am a spaghetti sauce spread on a white wall

I AM MESs

It’s not love if we made it

why don’t we make it

I strip the ego

cause i am no angel

don’t you realize all angels fall from heaven

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#idontcareifmyhonestyoffends #umightnotlikemeguesswhatidontlikemeeither

#childofherdesires

A blank canvas,

I'm no such thing

Mistake after mistake

Committed from utter foolishness

Words I wish I'd never said,

Thoughts I long to hold back,

Actions I yearn to erase

All the times I could've reacted better,

In a more positive way

All the moments I should've treasured,

Basking in their warmth

All the hugs I could've returned,

Showing you're cared for, too

All the times I should've said it back,

Those three simple words,

"I love you"

Someday, I'll no longer

Have the opportunity to

I have to admit my mistakes now,

And learn from them while I can

Next time, I'll return the sacred words

You offered from your vulnerable heart

1) Not suffocating myself in the womb

2) Not apologizing that one time

I'm gonna be honest, I'm way too prideful to admit I've done anything wrong despite making at least seventeen mistakes a day and even then a mistake is completely different based on the situation. Like fi you set fire in your kitchen it's a mistake but if you set a fire while you're camping it's suddenly okay.

I don't have a big ego because I generally don't care about stuff, but it's big enough for me to protect. So, yeah. Good day.