I can tell you what I’ve been through
What I go through
How I feel about it
I can describe the color and shape of every bush
The way the wind blows
How the sun feels on my skin
What the sound of waves provokes in me
What the desert tells me when no one else is listening
I can tell you all about the things I share with no one
I could offer you these pieces of sand about me and the simplicity beyond the complexity behind me
I can tell you how much I smoke
How little I drink
Who I read and why
I can tell you about my family, the role I play, the disappointments and achievements
I can tell you all of my predicaments
I can tell you about my REM dreams and my visions
I could give you multiple daily updates and stories
Write a novel or series of all the things that have happened to me
Things I’ve caused to happen unintentionally and exactly every time I got my way and how
I could give you names, dates, prices, and costs
I could tell you about everything except the things I can’t remember
And the most interesting part is that the truth about what it’s like to be me is hidden in those forgotten moments
Moments I surrendered to time as quickly as I could
While I grasp only the most pleasant things because I so desperately want those moments to have more significance.
Torrent in my Soul
I feel confusion, such a torrent in my soul.
A sadness at the end of my day, that creeps like dark ooze seeping from my skin.
A voice in my head that keeps saying.
It's time to go home.
But what do I have to go home to.
Everything has changed.
The home I once knew is no longer there.
The places and things that once held magic,
are now nothing but a useless crutch.
In my dreams I see the fields and forests I once walked Through.
In Summer green and gold.
The dream is hollow and empty.
The fields have turned to winters grey.
The forest has lost its green.
A voice in my head that keeps saying.
It's time to go home.
A sadness at the end of my day, that creeps like dark ooze seeping from my skin.
Such a torrent in my soul.
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lessons, around the block
big enough to hold the leash now,
she asks, “is that one apartments?” so
I explain counting mailboxes,
and that one’s a single family – you always
like their Halloween candy - but count this
one, four boxes affixed to the green
Victorian, two Direct TV dishes;
they built big back then, and
many in town were broken up
“like our neighbors” she says, “but not ours,”
and I say yes, like our neighbors,
like Miss Jeanne who gardens and
lets you pick peppers, or
Mrs. Johnson walking Bernie the
Dachshund, or Tom who repaired that
old red truck and moved when
his brother’s health failed;
I do not bring up the apartments across
the street where flashing red and blue
came for the stabbing and dealing last summer,
but she’s focused on our dog now anyway
because we’ve come to the porch where
that old woman smokes and keeps a sleeping
bag for her son, and she always steps down
to rub our beagle’s belly and floppy ears
And God disappeared in a “poof” of logic...
I wish I could say I go on here enough to speak with more knowledge of the writers, but I'm too damn busy chasing tails down disappearing cor
ridors trying to make some money in this damn technological era. But the ones who spark my curiousity are the atheists. Harry Situation is one, I know, because I entered one of his challenges. My apologies to the rest of you whose names I can't bring to mind at the moment. So I enjoy perusing the atheists conversations, they feel intellectually stimulating, and I enjoy a bit of what is unfamiliar to me, and I wish to probe their minds a bit. I also enjoy unpopular and dissenting points of view, as long as they are true to the heart, I love a good debate, and I enjoy being Proven wrong or put in my place; it means I have learned something.
Happy Birthday
I filled
a
cart
with all the things
I want to buy you
for your birthday
knowing I’ll never
click
purchase
or call you
at
9:37
to honor your mother’s memory
again
this year
I’ll light a candle
for your
number
blocked
so I don’t have to
hear
your
voice
or know
how
your
child
bride
bids
our
child
to oblige
this
happy
birthday
song
my therapist
says
I’m window shopping
for the fantasy
where I can
almost
have
it
all
where I somehow keep my
head
in the matter
while I watch you
have your
cake
and eat it
too
Red-crested turaco
And I love you...
All seasons long,
turbulent
currents
of a waterfall.
A steady rock,
laminar
flow
of molten rods.
I pull away
your strings.
Let them
summer
to my warm
kiss.
I spring
into
your ore.
Till
we pure
winter
of its
frost.
We caw
to the rising
fall,
yours is
sweeter
and soft.
ooooooooooooorrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeee! Huh!