I scream at the blanket of star above me

Where are you?

I beg for a response, a reply, a gesture, but I find nothing

Where are you?

I can’t hear your voice anymore, although I listen earnestly, endlessly

Where are you?

I can’t find my way out of this flat, dark place

Where are you?

I remember the times you held me close, told me things, showed me dreams, pictures, words, but now my senses are dead to you

Where are you?

Am I truly alone here, or just deaf and blind to everything you say

Will you ever come back to me?

chlorine skies

all purple and blue

burning my skin away

eating my soul like the devil

leaving me floating here astray

oh deep darkness, i pray

that the world won't end with me

lost in space

lost in the darkness

that no one will go to

i don't want to keep on seeing stars

that don't see me

i don't to want to float here alone

i don't want to be here

alone

She calls you

With her mellifluous weep

A sob

Sweet and rhythmic

She courts you

Bending to embrace

You rest

On her rough trunk

She tickles you awake

With her limp tendrils

Getting heavier

You seek escape

Her words were like little stars, exotically blinking and reaching towards me.

They were like comets, streaking and mesmerising. Beautiful and momentarily bright. They were like supernovas, exploding and obliterating anything else.

They were like meteorites, fast and furious. Agressive but so damn transfixing.

They were like black holes, where you don’t notice you can’t escape until it’s too late.

She was like space, deadly and silently. A galaxy, constantly evolving and changing. Unapologetically herself and flying to corners of existance you didn’t think could be there. She created this universe for herself.

She already had one, but somehow took another. She was the center of mine, too.

There’s someone else.

Maybe . . .

Someone with black button eyes

And lazy bushy eyebrows

That could love you more.

More than a word at the door.

More than a rare morning embrace -

Like,

Someone who would love you in their letters

And seal them with melted gold.

I know,

I’ve only ever given you a taste,

A fake, maybe a mistake.

We were only perfect on our wedding day.

And

After that, time came to pass.

I let those feelings dwindle.

I realize

That it’s unfair to you

Not to know that

I won’t ever do the same.

No,

I won’t ever write you letters

Or

Seal them with melted gold.

I won’t ever shout your name from rooftops

And let it echoe . . .

But you would for me

So,

I’ll let you go.

With your

Black button eyes

And lazy bushy eyebrows.

Just let us crumple

And

Go find a woman you’d know.

Yes, it’s true -

And

Truth hurts.

I’m sorry to say,

I stopped loving you years ago.

@KJhippie (challenge)

(tags: #love #poetry #heartbreak)