i was left alone

paranoia settled in

anxiety striked

left alone with thoughts

i couldn’t help what i did

a blade called my name

it’s been a while

since our last encounter

yet pain remains the same.

Churches filled to the brim

With stalwart hypocrites

Beliefs so strong,

Any others are undoubtedly wrong

Disagreements, asking questions

Signs of disbelief looked down upon

Difference in opinion is fine

Yet, people go to war,

Starting conflicts, inciting violence,

Hurting themselves and others,

All for a possible book of fables

Sometimes, I have to wonder

Have our people been brainwashed

By those shadowing steeples?

No matter the trouble,

The possible dangers,

I'll love you forever

I won't hesitate

To wrap you in a warm embrace

I'll always be there, holding tight

Even when you're on the edge,

About to fall,

I'll grip your hand, refusing to let go

When it comes to you,

I have no doubts in mind

For our love, I won't think twice

Unrepentantly,

Without regret,

I will forever love you

To me, love is always just that,

Love

Whether between a man and a woman,

Or a man and a man,

Woman and woman

Love is a binding force that affects us all

We all deserve to feel it,

To bask in its warmth

Never should it be a question of gender,

Rather one of compassion shared

Love is love

Because love exists in indefinite forms,

Linking person to person,

Filling their hearts

No matter the shape it takes,

Love is love

The way it should forever be

Quiet I sit in the middle of chaos,

Thunder clapping from all directions

Screams and crying flow thick through the air.

I grip onto what sanity I have left. A sliver of hope.

Make it stop. Make It Stop! MAKE IT STOP!!!!

Clench my eyes shut. Just to open them to nothing.

I am alone. The world is still.... the world is quiet... I am calm.

A dark abyss to nowhere

An endless tunnel

A constant fight to live

Choosing the way you die

It eats at your body

It eats at your mind

It eats at your soul

You slice your arm

Your leg

Anywhere that cannot be seen

Just to make pain go away for a moment

Just for a second

A second of peace

Voices tell me I'm unwanted

I shouldn't be alive

I need to die

A constant echo in my mind

Eroded it away

Eventually tearing into me

And I try to do as it says

A war has arisen between me and my mind

In the end there is a winner

If you lost the fight, your family will struggle.

If you won the fight, you chose the right way.

Depression takes your life one way or another

In the end or in the beginning know you are worth something even if it doesn’t seem like it in the beginning.

My war is still at battle and I do not plan on forfeiting.

we want to feel whole

yet we feel hollow

we think another being

like us will complete us

but how can one incomplete

complete another

I tried to forgive

I tried to love you without cautions

took down the tape

see I stopped acting like I am not a crime scene

I took off the bullet proof chest

and gave you the gun

took it off safety

cause we argeed we could trust each other not to hurt each other

get to close , we pull the rope tighter around each other

neck , were a see-saw

we run through the highs and lows

picking apart

old wounds

creating scars

we been through hell

but the burns are still hot

old self vanished

cut the thorns off this rose

cause I hate the sight of blood

see I tried to let of go the past

but it keep chasing us

I tried to forgive myself

you say , the past doesn’t matter

I try to tell you boy I am crazy as the mad hatter

your the one who handed me a gun , expect me to not to aim

sometimes the greatest enemy is ourself

I could take theese nails , and carve out my brains

and you would still love me

see we stuck in these four walls

caving into us

trying to break us apart

the world’s weight hovering over our shoulders

sometimes it feel like , the universe telling us

we ain’t mean to be

Man down

wouldn’t find another

won’t let you suffer

see I feel your heart flutter

lights off

lights on

making love

cause that’s the only we can do to turn down theese demons

we got all these obstacles

I put that weight in your heart

I tear your room apart

flip your world inside and out

walk upside down

just to reach you

walk across water

ain’t even close to jesus

you walk through hell

to be next to me

you love me , even though it hurts you

see if the past

didn’t come creep up on us

we could be happy

we too demons madly in love

we fell from earth

we ain’t holy enough to rest in heaven

see we found solace in the discomfort of pain

they say to let this go

they say we chasing infinty

maybe we got that forever love

ripped out my heart

tried to use my heartless

then you go again

perform cpr

until I come back to you

moan into your mouth

and parched lips

gulping your air

merged into you

became unmoveable in your mountains

go ahead and hurted you

start playing with the trigger

cause the voice’s got too loud

I know when I hurt me , I hurt you

Man down , I tried to stop the bleeding

and my hands kept figdeting around the hole

those blue eyes could swallow oceans

see these brown eyes are darker enough to bury souls

forgive my temper

I cock this gun so quick

my mind armed like a soilder

I got to protect the only thing left human in me

held me under

the atmosphere

love sounds really good

but they forget to mention

it is the only thing close’s to death

maybe were afraid of dying

by the hand of each other

we circle around each other

like were in battle

see we know cupid

got us fucked up

man down

we too late

from stopping the damage

we ain’t happy

we will keep eating paint chips

until we drink each other

fill each other memories

with the taste of us

cause even the darkest hour

the truth shudders

through the walls

we in this too deep

see we grew into a tree

fighting for oxygen

trying to let this heart stay open for you

holding out for us

we working through this bullshit

but this foundation of ours

is cracking under all theese hits

see we built a world

where the sun don’t shine

cause according to god

even good people

sin

and the evil men win

see we stiched smiles to are face

and we keep saying we okay

and yelling at each other

saying we need space

we keep leaving the door open just in case

see all we ever do is chase

each other

laugh it off

like the

only reason

I care

cause your like a brother

but you know after you there can’t be another

see I treat you like you was mine own

cheer you on like I am your mother

see I replay theese messages on my phone

I know we better off on our own

deep down

we out here acting like a clown

wearing a frown

we our are not afraid to drown

see we not afraid of being alone

see we are afraid of what happens

when we grown

will we get old

and forget about the stories we told

and the sercerts we kept .......,

see I could tell you the truth , but I rather stay on this throne

and not crack this crown

sincerly , Tyla

H.

O.

L.

Y

She’s a temple

A flinting flame

Shes the church

She’s the steeple

Shes the wavering faith

She s a sunday hymn

She holding a blood-stained cross

She foaming at the mouth with yesterday sins

Shes chasing a holy arrival

She her own type of pagan

A saturday well of whiskey

Stained with midnight regrets

Her mouth her own bottle

She tips to the mouth of a stranger to quite the trembling

Her hands are cups that hold her tears

And keep her head holding high

She sings amen

With hollow smile

And sunken eyes

She whispers sins

In the marble of the church walls

She the worshippers mary

She practice her faith over a bible

She commits her religion

On a righteous

Velvet sheet

And worships

The tomorrow’s

And salutes the moon

Plants her lips

On a funeral

Her madness

Is her quietness

That

Folds around her neck like a noose

And sings a haunting hallejuah

And promioses

To worship his church

She tie hair up in the virginty of christianty

She the humour

She the churches gossip

She the giggle

She the hell everyone was warned about in the scriptures

She the worships the good times

And she bows her head

To glass

And wallows in the

Wine teardrops

That dribble from her chin

Don’t you know damaging eyes

Have a fascination with breaking perfect things

#dark magic #holy scriptures # the church will lie in ruins today #we're all sinners

yes, i am afraid

of letting in

the light

it reveals

every fracture i’ve

taped together and

filled with

temporary colors

no one can see

my scars

in the dark, but

in the light,

i am vulnerable

and terrified

of finding

a permanent fix

for the cracks

that define me,

map my history

as a survivor, broken

but still standing

like ancient ruins

kissed

by the moon,

the light

burns away

the shadows of me,

the sun

fades my scars

and that

is why

i am afraid,

because without

these maps

how will i navigate

the fractures

of a new mask?