What if I could’ve spent had more time with him

Done more before the light in his eyes went dim

What if I’d stood up and defended myself more

And soared onward in my career and out the door

What if I had spent my money without so much haste

Working for a future without a drop of sweat to waste 

What if I had a chance to do it all over again

Would I look back and say  'remember when’?

Mama walks with

short, shaky steps

crunching

fallen leaves.

Her struggling breath

rattles

through her lungs

like wind across the trees.

She gently lays

a gnarled hand on wrinkled bark

whose branches are near bare

and tears

slip

down her face

betraying all her fear.

Mama is like autumn

stubbornly holding on

each day slowly

letting go

'til winters frost is come.

Feelings falter.

Freefall.

Fantasies fade.

Feverish fantasies.

Frenzied. Frayed.

Far from forgiveness.

Far from forever.

You say:

you will take away my freedom

you will cage me in with four walls

you will take away my family

you will put me in an unsafe environment

you will take away my basic human rights

Your words don’t affect me

I will not sit here while you blabber on

I will not be hurt by your words or

feel threatened by them

You can’t hurt me

You can’t do anything

I won’t sit any longer

and I won’t let anyone else sit any longer

You hurt so many

You let others feel a way no one should ever feel

You are greed

You are sin

and I won’t sit

I will rise

with my friends

family,

enemies

I will rebel

I will fight

and I will win

"Things will get better,

tomorrow is a new day."

I wasn't sure then.

Mom raised us alone-

grace and strength during hard times.

Lots of rainy nights.

Missed him for three years,

but then Dad came back to us.

God must have heard me.

My sister and I,

children of five and seven.

Oh how far we've come.

So now when skies are darkened, and hope seems far away,

I remember Grandpa's words: "Tomorrow is a new day."

‘Dream big’ my dad said

And I did, for a moment—

life’s not so simple.

London and Paris:

An old man begs me for bread,

Where’s the beauty?

Defeat trailed me home

My mom’s tears forced me to smile

Quote: ‘Good things will come.’

How do you go on?

Stranger in the rain answers:

‘Look up—sun’s coming out.’

The muffled clink of coins in a paper cup reminds me,

Salvation lies in kind words and small deeds.

I looked at my dear beloved husband

He was smiling at me and saying with hope

“It will be fine, you are not going that far

You are in my heart my darling wife, “

And upon hearing his words, I closed my eyes

I took one last breath and I was no more, I guess

I felt I was in heaven, I was in the white pure clouds

I could hear singing, it felt like angels were singing

I felt my wedding ring, the diamond so shiny, so glittery

Suddenly everything felt so divine, like I deserved to be here

It must be heaven, for there was no noise, only the sounds of hymns

It was like my church choir, the one which was sung on our wedding day

I wasn’t wearing any wedding dress because I knew I was dead, I had left my home

Instead I was wearing my blue dress, the one I wore when had first met him in a café

An angel came down from the clouds and clasped my hand, she tugged my hand and I followed

I followed her through massive clouds and I saw that on top of a giant cloud was our home

I had no heart, could not feel that I was human, only that I was a mere spirit, the holy spirit kind

I did not see my little daughter or my dog only that lot of white divine doves was flying

The house disappeared and I could only water around me, I could not cry, I did not feel pain

I only wished that the angel would take me to god, I wanted to ask how is my husband

The angel took me to a giant mirror, I looked at it and saw that my husband was mourning,

He was crying, looking at my clothes, and my dog was weeping in his own way, knowing I was gone

I felt like singing a hymn and suddenly the angel was no more, I felt that indeed god had arrived

Or was that he was with me all my life, I felt god when I remembered my fifth birthday

I felt god when I remembered my first kiss, I felt god when I remembered my last birthday

I did not want to weep anymore, I only held gods hand and walked with him into the horizon

The sun was shining and the bright rays only filled me with hope, I smiled at god and knew

That the angel of death was also sent by god and that even in after life I knew god would

Always be by my side and my husband will one day too come and stay with me in after life!

Secrets

You tell them, and you keep them, and now you're about to hear mine.

However, before i get started I wan't all of you to know, what you are about to read is extremly personal, so no matter what you can never tell another soul.

You see, my secret started six years ago when i was ten years old. At the time, I was a very curious child, so when i heard a weird noise coming from my attic, it was only natural that i go and check it out. I went up into our attic, but oddly enough when i opened the door, everything was normal.

From a small corner though i could hear a wierd buzzing noise. I followed the noise until i got to a chest that was coverd in dust. I opend the chest, and what i discovered changed my entire life, and my change yours in the near future.

When i opened the chest, i didn't see toys or clothes. No, instead, i saw a purple and black cloud of smoke that was circling in a spiral motion.

I know. I know. You think im crazy, don't you?

Well i assure you I am speaking the truth. I reached into the smoke like any kid my age would do, but when the smoke swirled up my body, some of it went in my nose. I started to sneeze, and surely enough, i fell into the chest.

Now i figured that the chest would have taken me somewhere where there was princesses or maybe dragons, but instead, it took me to a old, dusty library. I made my way outside, and all of the women were dresses in beautiful gowns. I had only ever seen dresses like this once before in my entire life. They were in a movie that my teacher made me watch. It ws called Gone With The Wind. I hadn't really liked the movie that much, but i loved the costumes.

I walked down the street until i found a local newspaper stand. I picked up a paper and read the date. March 12, 1937.

I was so confused and honestly kind of scare, so I ran back to the chest, and I quickly crawled back in. In no time at all, I was back in my attic.

I ran to the library and did as much research as i could before it got dark. Then, when i got, home i went back to the attic and got into the chest again.

This time however, i didn't go to 1937. Instead i went to 1776. I watched the founding fathers sign the Declaration of Independence through a window in the back.

You see my secret isn't one that i'm ashamed of. It allows me to see things that i have only ever dreamed up.

My secret is...time travel.